mE Project| “Nana The Pot’s Burning!”
The funny thing about life is that no amount of scheduling or planning can prepare you for when things go awry. My mother had this phrase her Nana taught her to say when she was little. She would say it if her Nana was on the phone and didn’t feel like talking or if she had reached her limit because her Nana wasn’t the type of woman to come out and say “I don’t feel like being bothered.” or “I don’t want to talk right now.”
She taught my mom to say, “Nana the pot’s burning!” Then she would rush off the phone like it was an emergency. The only thing is, this could only be done a few times to the same person or else they would catch on. Over the weekend, and even yesterday, I had a series of “Pot Burnings”.
Saturday to Sunday
Saturday and on into Sunday, I had a moment of realization that I was fighting against my own body. Not just physically, but emotionally and mentally as well. I’ve been sick now with a sinus infection for about a week which by itself is okay. But for some reason, my mild Asthma has decided to flare up too. I’ve been having to use my inhaler and take breathing treatments. The antibiotics the doctor put me on have been making me sick.
I don’t discuss all of my health issues, that often because honestly, there are many. While one is being handled, the others are sitting on the shelf. And I don’t want my health to become a “thing” or an “it”. My health is a part of me, sometimes the parts don’t work like they are supposed to.
Planning for Failure
Sunday, I started planning for the week. After one mishap after another, I realized the day wasn’t going to work out. I wasn’t working correctly and my computer has been acting up. Hearing that a family friend is sick then later listening to words spoken in ignorance just topped the cake.
I was done. And I think that’s an important step to make. It’s okay to accept defeat in a battle as long as you don’t lose the war. With my anxiety and depression, I know myself enough to know I hit my limit. I needed to rest. I needed to de-stress.
Opposite of mE
I took yesterday off. At first, I felt bad. I didn’t want to miss a mE Project post. Then I realized it didn’t matter if I wasn’t in the right mindset to write it. How could I talk about mE (motivate, encourage, energize) if I wasn’t feeling these things?
Today is better. Today, I’m here to say that it’s okay if the pot has to burn and you have to give up the day for yourself, as long as you don’t give up entirely. Bad days will happen. But good days are around the corner.